New mom tired

I first suspected I was pregnant when we went to the gym as usual on a Saturday afternoon, and when we got there, I felt so tired I could not even get on the treadmill. I just felt bone-tired. So we went straight to the drugstore and got a pregnancy test. But then the test said the morning is the best time to take the test, so I waited until Sunday morning. And we were pregnant! And then throughout my pregnancy, I was going to bed at like 9:30 pm, and taking naps, and just wanting to sleep all the time.

I'm not really a new mom anymore since the dude is almost one year old (crazy!), but I have been thinking about the 'new-mom tired.' Someone commented to me when I was a brand new mom that there is nothing quite like that exhaustion mommas deal with. And I completely agree. My pregnancy tiredness was nothing compared to when I was up with the little guy all night every night for weeks straight.

(sooo tired (and my bra was showing, like pretty much every picture of me during that time))

When I look at pictures from when Cohen was brand new, I remember so clearly how I felt. It takes a while to feel like yourself again. I think it's partly the hormones, but mainly the lack of sleep. I remember this one time when Cohen was maybe 2 weeks old, and Jon asked me if I wanted pizza or burgers for supper. I started crying. I was too tired to make even the simplest decision. And yet, I felt so confident in my ability to take care of Cohen. Amazing.